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After twenty years of smoke inhalation and now maintaining my new existence without nicotine. I still ponder... am I just standing in line as I am still existing in this new world... only to begin this addictive habit once again at some point down the road? That question will always be a part of my make-up. This is my path to the freedom of mind, body and spirit. I am here to share my path with those who are facing this competition with any addiction. I am also aware that those who smoke or wish to give up smoking are probably not the ones reading this. Those that smoke or wish to stop will read the first few lines of what I am writing and say, "I'm not reading this sh#t!!!"

I am not unlike anyone else who has at one point or another in their life accepted this spiritual path with smoke and mirrors... because that is what it is! Those who have continued smoking "as a given".... have merely shut the door to their spiritual self for now and for some unconscious personal purpose and reason. We didn't just pop out of mom's womb as smokers. I believe we had spiritually requested that path long before our actual birth. With statements like that, I am aware that I will loose quite a few readers. So be it for those readers have not yet learned what they could be blessed to learn in order to begin their path to quitting their addictions.

For those still on board, it has been said... we had actually selected our parents who smoked before coming into this dimension and if neither of our parents ever smoked and we ended up smoking, then we began smoking cold turkey without much understanding of why. Stay with me here.

They say, we began this journey with nicotine as easy as we have the spiritual ability to complete it... for everything in existence cycles back around to confirm or verify PURPOSE. So often, as human entities, we create guilt from doing something we believe on some level we shouldn't be doing in the first place. Nicotine addiction is no different. The beauty of "Guilt" is a blessed tool which our spirit uses to awaken us to our path to the importance of this so-called "purpose". It remains the guilt from smoking that we fight over and over until we are either in understanding of that guilt to tread our path... or we die. Everyone dies and if you don't die from smoking... you will locate another system of passage. That's a smoker's perspective anyway. What we will face in this article will be the understanding of "spiritual nicotine". It only becomes "spiritual nicotine" once the self has released its addictive hold but until that time comes... the notion of "spiritual nicotine" is just addiction.

The difference of "spiritual" nicotine and "addictive" nicotine is what we will cover here. If you're a smoker or used to be one, I welcome you to your new existence whether you have finished or just begun the guilt phase or have lived with it long enough to sense the need to end it. If you are a smoker right here, right now reading this, then you are ready to spiritually expand your spiritual existence on some level. Welcome to YOUR journey. This initial process is a cry that you are aware of but this time you will possess the understanding that the baby's cry is now from just being tired of dealing with "the process of addiction" and not from the actual guilt. "Possessing guilt from smoking" and "just being tired of addiction" are different states of existence within one's mind. They are treated differently by the sub-conscious mind which means that the "possessing guilt" system can operate without you even consciously being aware of it. That's the strength of one's EGO. This guilt we are speaking about merely becomes the understanding of where this addiction came from and where it is going. It is all just a system of "smoke and mirrors" until we possess the ability to see through it. Welcome to our journey. It CAN be done... but just know that it will never end! If you have stopped smoking, know that you will always face times of recurrence for the rest of your life. Never believe you have kicked the habit and it's now over! That is just the ego's trick for you to pick up the habit again in the future. I've learned that much about the quitting process. I am a recovering addict the rest of my life. I not only gave up cigarette smoking but I gave up my medicinal cannabis I was legally smoking because of the on-going pain I inherited from my four reconstructive knee surgeries and while I was at it... I gave up drinking alcohol and caffeine, too! Once you face one addictive behavior, it is much easier to face the others. Why not get them all while I'm at it? The dominoes began falling immediately after I gave up the 22 years of nicotine and cannabis. I 86'ed the red meat, the dairy, the sugar, the salt, the chocolate, the sodas and the gluten! I pretty much went for the whole banana and I am still discovering more! Commercial television went and one of the addictions which I never before classified as an addiction... CURSING... gone! Alot of this was at the same time, on the same day! Cold Turkey!!! Yeah, I know! It was a bitch! But I got through the painful part. It's been over one year now and I give thanks every single day and I will also offer myself a credit of appreciation every single day for this incredible acheivement! My arms are long enough now that I can even pat myself on the back every time I think about it! I am grateful every second! I am thankful every day and every second I am alive and breathing! I have no problem or shame that anyone knows that I was an addict who smoked a pack of cigarettes a day for over 22 years. I can now stand proud and say, I was an addict who smoked hash and cannabis every day for over 20 years. How do I deal with that pain now? Acupuncture! No more hash, no more cannabis, no more prescription pain killers! Acupuncture! I wasn't much of a drinker except for a beer here and there but that's over, too! I took in caffeine every day for most of my adult life with either coffee or soda pop every day. That's done and I'm proud of that! I didn't stop any of these addictions one at a time because I already went through that aggravation with my well respected ego. I could write a 400 page book about my ego and all the sly and clever little games it played on me when I was trying to quit so many times before! I still keep one eye on my ego and one ear to the ground every second that I breath because I know my ego thinks it is smarter than me! How many times did it say, "F#%k this! I don't care! I'm smoking what I want, when I want and no one will tell ME different!!! I'm 6'3" and weigh 200 pounds! No one is going to tell me, sh#t!" Been there, done that, already lost the souvenirs! That vacation's over! People talk about "cold turkey" like it is the man's way to stop addictions. I don't care who's way it is. I did it to this point so, I know it's possible for other human beings! I feel strong about where I am right now with the absence of all those addictions and I must say that I don't think twice about any of those addictions now after my one year graduation. I am also aware that I'm not looking for a medal or a chest to pin it on because I know my ego too well and I will never think I've just kicked these habits! The strange part of this journey into an addiction-free existence is that I've had quite a few dreams about having the opportunity to smoke a cigarette or cannabis but I have refused all my addictions in my dream states! Do you know how good you feel the next morning knowing that you didn't even cross that line in your dream states?! That was wild!

I'm just sharing this with you because if you actually knew everything I went through mentally and physically to get to this point, then you would know someone else out there like you who has been successful in making it to freedom! Cold turkey sandwiches aren't too bad, ya know? We're adaptive beings and sooner or later we can adapt ourselves to the quitting of anything, no matter how deep we get!

UPDATE: It is now July 5th, 2010 and I have stayed away from my once deeply embedded addictions since that "cold turkey day" in Dec. 2008 and haven't turned back because I am still aware that I am an addict. GOOD LUCK! If I did it... YOU can do it!!!